I have been studying for the online Bible Study that I am leading in the fall. Psalm 139 is an important chapter that we study. So I thought I would start there. I didn’t get very far when Psalm 139:3 stopped me in my tracks.
“You chart the path ahead of me and tell me where to stop and rest. Every moment you know where I am.”
I always knew about the “path” that I am continually trying to locate and stay on. But telling me where to stop and rest was something I don’t ever remember reading or learning before.
If I had to pin point my location on the path I would say that I am at a resting place. I have tried fighting against this rest stop. I can see the road ahead of me and I want to keep moving and reach for the goals that God has me striving for.
The more I fought the harder God tried to hold me in the resting place. Why would I want to fight rest? Looking back on the last two years I am asking myself a lot of questions. Currently I am enjoying the rest. I now know that this is a time of “being still” and taking time to study and prepare for what God has next. I am enjoying it and treasuring this time that I get to spend with my Lord. I am learning and growing tremendously; I have learned to be thankful for this time.
The question arises again. Why did I fight this? Why did it have to come to the point of health issues and job loss for me to give in and give myself over to a period of rest.
As a society we are driven to succeed. A period of rest could look like laziness and lack of dedication to the calling that God has placed on your life. I was enjoying what I was doing for God, why would I want to stop? I was helping people-- encouraging people to live their lives with and on purpose. I won a National award for my book-- why would I want to stop when everyone was asking when my next book is coming out?
Now that I have chosen to stop and rest I have a clearer vision of what God has in store. It is bigger and greater than anything that I was striving for when I was fighting the rest, and something I would have never seen if I didn’t have this time of rest.
Every moment you know where I am and why I am there. May I continue to be obedient and trust that you know the path better than I may think I do.
Cj Carleton is the 2008 Canadian Christian Writing Award winner for her first book “What Makes You Unique? Discover the Truth or Believe the lie”. Learn more about Cj and her upcoming Online Girls Bible Study by visiting www.cjcarleton.com You can also connect with her on Twitter or Facebook.