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| Boardwalk along St. Mary's River at Sault Ste. Marie |
I worked in a large office building steps away from a boardwalk that
follows the curve of the St. Mary’s River along the Canada-U.S. border. For
longer than I should confess, I spent my lunch hours in the mall across the
street, running errands and browsing, until one day I looked out the mall’s entrance
at rapids glistening in June’s sun and thought, “Shame on you!” The next day I
joined walkers, joggers, in-line skaters and nature lovers who spend their
lunch breaks by the water.
Twenty minutes into
my first trek on the boardwalk, I noticed a bench perched on a steep bank on
the river’s shore, half-hidden in a grove of pine trees. The bench caught my
attention for its view of the river but when I sat on it, its solitude
enveloped me in arms scented with pine. A not unpleasant fish odor hung over
the water. Below, ducklings floated on waves behind their mamas. I sensed God saying, “This is a place where
you and I can get re-acquainted.”
When I was a stay-at-home mom, I set aside the afternoon
hour between one and two for prayer. Television and phone silenced, children
either at school or napping, I knelt or sat on the living room sofa for my
special alone time with God. This private prayer time reduced my worries
because I daily transferred them to Him. Confidence to teach a ladies Bible
study in my home, witness to my neighbors and accept speaking invitations came
from that special hour. Worries and frustrations shrank when I poured them out
in prayer to the Father. I found that prayer increased my creativity, my zest
for living and even healed my heart of past hurts.
Relinquishing this
prayer hour was the most difficult aspect of re-joining the work-force. At my
busy desk, I often felt lonely for God and wished everyone would take the day
off and leave me alone. It’s not that I didn’t pray before feeding my three
children and getting them off to school. It’s just that my rushed mornings
weren’t conducive to prayer and my sleepy brain often wandered to my daily
to-do list.
The bench gave me a
place to be with God and that was an important element to finding my way back
to prayer. I heard a Chinese pastor of an underground church tell how, while
imprisoned in a crowded, noisy cell, he asked God to provide a place for him to
be alone to pray and worship. Not long after sending his impossible request up
to heaven, guards assigned him to lagoon-skimming – shoveling off the top layer
of the prison’s sewage reservoir. The stench kept everyone away, including the
guards. Alone for hours, he prayed and praised loudly.
In comparison to a
prison lagoon, my riverside sanctuary sits in a corner of heaven. At lunch
times, I quickly changed my shoes, nearly running from my busy desk to the
solitary bench, hoping all the way that no one reaches it before me. As I neared
it, I found myself already talking to God – asking for healing for a friend, a teaching
position for my daughter, increased creativity for myself, an opportunity to
tell a co-worker about Jesus. Some needs brought tears to my sun-glassed eyes. My
bench welcomed me. “Sit. Share your anxious thoughts with Jesus," it seemed to say.
Do you need an
alone place for you and God? Ask Him to provide one. Perhaps it won’t be as sense-satisfying
as my pine-surrounded bench but it will definitely be better than our Chinese
brother’s sewer. Whatever the location, your private place will become precious
for what it symbolizes – a place where friendship with God flourishes.
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Rose McCormick Brandon is the author of four books, including, Promises of Home - Stories of Canada's British Home Children. Visit her blogs, Listening to my Hair Grow and Promises of Home. Her books are available here.http://writingfromtheheart.webs.com
